Keep It Pushing
What do you do when you feel like the world is crashing down on you and feels like there is no escape?
What do I do when I can’t see what’s ahead and I’m afraid for what’s to come?
What do you do when your in a job where you are being treated weirdly and unfairly based off the color of your skin?
What do I do when I keep failing a reoccurring test?
What do I do when I have nowhere else to hide?
What do I do when all the odds are against me?
What do I do when I feel like I am alone?
The only answer I can give you is pray and keep it pushing.
That is easier said than done.
As black women we are always told to keep pushing and keep going. Keep fighting to be in spaces that you “don’t belong”. Black women are strong. Black women can handle anything. Black women exceed beyond the boxes that they are put in. Black women are becoming the first! First in every category, even when no one was on their side. When odds were stacked against them. When people didn’t believe in them. When she barely believed in herself at some moments. Keep going. Keep pushing. Keep striving.
What about my questions? What do I do?
Keep it pushing. The wall will collapse.
You may not know when, but you have a powerful tool on your side that can make walls fall faster than any humanly way possible. Pray and keep it pushing.
Let us talk about:
When odds are against me.
Being in a field or even a building where there is only 1-2 people who look like you, can be scary. You often question, “How did I get myself here?”……. It’s for a reason babe.
I started a job in a state where diversity is slim. Especially in the field that I am in. It’s not normal to see a Black, Female Scientist. Everything that I do is monitored and in the good year of 2026, the past seems to repeat itself in the workforce. Why can’t people just grow up? Open your mind from the shackles that your ancestors engraved in you. I am just as capable as you are. If not more with this degree but it’s not to brag but to prove facts. As soon as I found a friend that looked like me, it was already monitored and schemed against. Its like our conversations were the topic of others conversations. We talk in code so what we were saying was written as something different but just the interaction was “not appropriate”. But others can have conversations that are worse and still slide? They can talk about their entire life and fetishes but I can catch up and ask her how her day is going? “Your conversations have been prolonged and louder”……… I AM LOUD? Many nights you never heard me laugh but just being in each others presence was loud enough.
Emotions were high because I felt that I was being targeted. I figured that the target was on my back because I seem to bring a different persona than what they are used to. Even when the target is coming from someone in leadership (with a shady background) but it seem like everything has been overlooked and that’s BOGUS. But what can I do to make a change? Continue being me. They hate to see me coming. Even when I wanted to go off and say every emotion that I felt, I had to let God handle that battle. I said, “God, I’ll keep quiet but I need you to get them. Let them know hw their actions have consequences and save me from showing them the consequences with my words and hands.” lol. I have kept documentation of everything and who was present and what was said. The day it’s needed, I’ll hand it over in a shiny gold folder.
A conversation with a fellow sista had to end on company grounds because someone was intimidated when we got together. But they still want me to come to the “team bonding” event?…… I will not be in attendance. My time is used for me, not for toxicity and fakeness. I will always be respectful but I knew this was going to happen. The only thing this changes is that they won’t be hearing me, but conversations outside of work will still be had. And this only fuels me to keep going and show them that what they thought was suppose to keep me down or make me sweat, didn’t happen. A part of me felt that I was playing into their game and letting them win, but I have to think bigger and outside of my emotions. I am doing this for me and the haters will see me grow regardless. Though my emotions are valid, they want to see me tremble…. I WON’T LET THEM GET THAT SATISFACTION. I was ready to pull up the code of conduct and employee handbook and write the best HR request ever, but I had to take a step back. Will that solve anything or will they get their consequence handed to them 10x worse? I decided that I have to hand it over to the big man above. I will keep pushing when the odds are against me. Keep going even when they try to attack your character because they can’t attack your performance. With a smile on my face and a big God on my side, I can pass through anything.
You can’t catch meeeeeeeeeeeeeee 🙂
“What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us?”~ Romans 8:3“But in that coming day no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you….” ~Isaiah 54:17
“After a period of glory, the Lord of Heaven’s Armies sent me against the nations who plundered you. For he said, ‘Anyone who harms you harms my most precious possession. I will raise my fist to crush them, and their own slaves will plunder them.’ Then you will know that the Lord of Heaven’s Armies has sent me. The Lord says, ‘Shout and rejoice, O beautiful Jerusalem, for I am coming to live among you.’” ~ Zechariah 2:8-10
When my world is collapsing.
Your world may feel like it’s slapping you in the face. It is doing that for a reason. There are a million reasons why things are happening the way they are happening. There are a million reasons why everything feels so heavy and felling like a bus is hitting you everyday. One reason out of the million cannot be that this is happening because God does not love me. That is never the reason. Some tough seasons are here to build character. To get you to be the person your are meant to be. To get yo to see something in particular. To get you to rely on God and grow your trust in Him. There’s a million reasons why but just know that you cannot stop when it feels like life is not going the best. PRAY. PRAY, and pray some more. Put your trust in God. Simply saying “ God I trust you in this tough season. Show me what I need to do to make it though”, can open up light that you did not even notice. Pray, give it to God and LEAVE IT ALONE. Keep pushing and powering though and having an open mind to receive the lessons during those tough moments.
Speaking from experience, this is is easier said than done. Get your cry on for 10-20 minutes (that’s still a lot but its release) then get back to it. Show your circumstances and yourself that you can make it though. You can do anything when God is on your side and your world collapsing is one of them. Technically tour world is not collapsing but being shaped and formed. That’s the tough part but it’s beautiful on the other side. Don’t get defeated by something that wasn’t put on you for defeating purposes. Take that hard moment and say “I am going to make it though. This is just a season and I will learn and become who I am supposed to be based off this season”. Stand on it and push.
KEEP IT PUSHING SIS!
“God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.” ~Psalm 46:1
“The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.” ~ Psalm 34:17-18
Also read:
-Psalm 91:1-2
-2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When I don’t know what to do.
Have you prayed and ask God what you should do? And did you wait patiently for Him to answer you back? Key word is patiently… I have had my fair share of asking God for direction then wanting him to talk back right then and there. I’m not saying that He doesn’t do that, but sometimes God will answer your prayer for direction in a different manner. A different manner can be God using someone to deliver the answer, a visual sign can be used or He just may let you just think it through and guide your thoughts into the right direction. Sometimes you just have to think on what has already transpired in your past and that alone will give you the answers you need. Thinking back to how he brought you through certain situations and circumstances where you asked the same question, “What do I do?”. Sometimes the answer is sitting right in your face and sometimes, you already knew the right answer.
Pray and look for the answer patiently.
Sometimes you have to take that leap of faith do what’s in your heart to do. A test could be occurring and God is waiting for you to listen to the pointers that He has put in your life and see if you’ll take that leap and trust Him with the next.
“Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow. Lead me by your truth and teach me, for you are the God who saves me. All day long I put my hope in you.” ~ Psalm 25:4-5
“The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.” ~ Psalm 32:8
Also Read:
- Isaiah 58:11
- Proverbs 16:9
When I am scared for what’s to come.
The future is in God’s hands and if you believe that, you won’t be scared of what’s to come. Have faith that the future holds exactly what you need and God will be there to help you pick up those pieces. If you believe, you will succeed. Yes, I know its scary and as much as you want to control it, what’s to come will happen regardless. God could be preparing you now to handle whatever is coming. Take heed to it and keep it pushing. Give it over and keep it pushing.
As I am navigating my career and experience in the science industry, I have had moments where I was scared for what’s to come. Especially now in this day where the job market is terrible and wages are questionable and it seems like opportunities are limited anywhere. There is a reason why I am in the industry that I am in. I am capable to thriving in many areas and this route may seem unconventional to me but there’s a plan in place. In my prayers, I ask God to please open my ears, eyes and heart to receive what you have for me. Please help connect the dots for these lessons and se the bigger picture in everything that I do. Just because I don’t know what’s to come, I know that I will be given the proper tools to succeed through anything that may come my way. I trust that You are with me in every step and I thank you in advance for what you are going to do with me and my future.
“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” ~ Joshua 1:9
“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.” ~ John 14:27
Also read:
- Isaiah 41:10, 13
- Psalm 46:1-3
- 2 Timothy 2:7
When I can’t control my narrative.
You really don’t need to know the future, because even if you try to work towards that “future”, it will never turn out to be what you’ve envisioned. That’s because it’s not our plan, it’s God’s plan. I know it’s easy to get through life if you know what the overall goal is. It makes you have a little bit of control over what you have going on now. It just won’t work like that, honestly. Check out our previous blog where we go in depth about this.
You will never be able to control your narrative. You are graced daily. If you decide to stop doing your part, you are disrupting the plan that God has for you. You may ask “ If my life is already planned then why do I have to keep doing preventative things to turn things around if whatever is meant to happen will happen regardless?” If you stop doing what your are supposed to do, all you are doing is delaying your blessing. You think God is going to reward laziness? Not at all. He will delay a blessing so hard until your are ready because God controls the narrative, you don’t. The plan is written out and you have to do what you are supposed to do and He will do what he is supposed to do. MUTUALISM. Keep praying, praising and pushing through. The light at the end of the tunnel will happen. But even if the light does not play out how you thought it should be or you see it as a “little” blessing, you still need to praise because it could’ve been worse. Any relief is major relief. Any step forward, is a big step forward in the right direction.
When you can’t control the narrative, stop trying to. You do what God tells you to do and what you know you should be doing and it will turn around when you least expect it, IF that’s God’s plan.
God I trust you what’s to come next.
“You can make many plans, but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.” ~ Proverbs 19:21
“I know that you can do anything, and no one can stop you.” ~ Job 42:2
“Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.” ~ Psalms 37:7
When I let God do His work.
When you are open and vulnerable to God and allow Him to take control and do the work He has for you, you will feel the relief you are looking for. Have you ever felt a weight lifted off your shoulders before? The instant relief of whatever was weighing you down. That’s the same feeling you feel when you let God take hold of the wheel. Let him be the driver and you be the dj as you are going down this road called life. Sometimes He will test you along the way and you may get scared but you have to remember who is the driver in this dynamic. That doesn’t mean you can sleep the whole entire time. You have a job to do too lol. It’s a mutual dynamic, and you need to play your part !
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” ~ Provers 3:5-6
“Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” ~ 1 Peter 5:7
“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.” ~ Philippians 2:13
From sister to sister, you got this! Do not let what’s going on now defeat you. This is a molding phase. A transitional phase. A stepping stone. Take it one day at a time, one prayer at a time and one moment at a time. God is giving you the tools to succeed, are you using what’s been given to you? Have you prayed and given it ALL to God? Have you released what you know you can’t take to the next step? Do you trust Him with your future? I can ask so many questions but now its time for you to question yourself and see what God has for you.
Start by asking.
Let it go.
Have an open mind.
Be accepting of what is given to you.
Then KEEP IT PUSHING.
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